i need to find something to focus this passion into.there are so many things that i know a little bit about, there are so many things i know enough about to have an intelligent reaction to, but there are very few things i feel like i know enough about to have an opinion on. do you ever feel overwhelmed by the amount of information available to you? do you ever feel underwhelmed by your own inability to communicate?

i have always shunned the formal teacher-student relationship; maybe because when i was in college i felt so fundamentally different than anyone around me (and, indeed i was), and when i was in grad school i felt incredibly inadequate. now, though, i want a teacher, i want a mentor, but i am too old for one.

i am determined to make my own way.